She has lived a long life and still does. Her husband was quickly and violently removed from her life so she could not infect him any further away from his salvation. She has three children. All of whom she drove away from God through her religious fervor. The eldest is wondering lost. The middle seeks after what is esteemed by the world. Both are a reflection of her true self. The third she pushed to commit murder through abortion just so her social standing within the “church” would not be tarnished.

Within the “church” she taught children Bible verses, which has led most into a lukewarm life and most likely damnation. Instead of teaching the full Word of God which made it clear we are to live a needs-only lifestyle and to place all others before our own wants, and desires. However, to her it is all about her placement within the “church.” Her achievements, her standing, her possessions. All opposite the Word of God.

Now as her mind leaves her. All she cares about is her past experiences. Her possessions and that people don’t steal them. Yet, in her mind she believes she is saved and not destined to awaken to the Great White Throne Judgement.

She fears letting go and passing on. For her soul knows what her mind has not yet comprehended. That she will not awaken till she stands in judgement. Even though she hears knocking in her dreams. The knocking of the Lord seeking to accept her and her surrender unto Him. Yet she refuses to let go. Clinging to this temporal existence as her mind and body falls apart.