The quest for salvation begins with an understanding that we as human beings are corrupt. We all sin, but there are degrees of sin. Those sins that actually change the path of our existence are the worst of these sins.
Sins like taking the life of another human being. Sins like choosing to be with someone of the same sex instead of the opposite sex. These sins turn you down a path that is hard to turn from, but that must be turned away from.
At the core of all sin is the desire to satisfy yourself. Your wants and desires.
In the Bible, we are taught that removing the “self” is a core element to do in the journey toward salvation. However, how can we ever get there on our own? We cannot. We must turn to the only person that was perfect. For only something pure and clean can remove the impure and filthy. Do you not use a clean rag and water when cleaning a mess?
Who is this perfect being? It is Jesus Christ, the Son of God. Can you still come to God once you have committed the worst of sin? Yes you can, but it will cost you dearly. You must emotionally suffer greatly as you go through the rest of your life, but realize this life we now live is temporal. Our true rewards are promised us not in this life, but in the next and eternal life.
You will be tempted to return to your previous lusts and desires. You may falter, but turn away and repent and then strive forward toward God. All you need do is ask Jesus into your life, and to read the Bible. It will already be difficult, but if you do not ask Jesus’s help or learn from the Bible the struggle may tear you apart from the inside. In many ways, it already will especially when turning from a major sin. It must be done so you can one day as you explore the universe say to yourself:
“I am here because of Jesus.”
Memories
Spiritual warfare and experiencing it in this reality
I was having a discussion with my middle son. He is in his thirties. He brought up a situation that happened soon after I had recently been born-again. Myself, and my two sons, who were just getting close to or at ten years old, noticed as well.
Several times I felt the presence of something not welcome in the house, the boys had a more vivid experience. They descript it as woman or witch as one said that was coming into their room. They both saw at the same time and as I said I felt its presence.
I was still young in my faith and very flamboyant about my faith those first few years after being born-again. This I have found out is typical behavior; I have also learned this is the time when many lose their faith.
This presence hunted my boys and I did my best to fight it off through prayer, but as I said I was young in my faith and didn’t approach anyone else with this issue. It wasn’t till my first divorce that was done and I was out of the house until my boys found peace.
Me on the other hand have gone through trial after trail. Why? Because I still believe and follow God, but as I grew in my faith I learned to place most of my burdens to God, and yet I know I have a long way to go still. As I talked to my middle son, he told me he had been reading on what he encountered. For there have been others that have experienced this, enough to write books about.
Most of these books go from a secular point of view and that is how my son presented it to me. One thing he made perfectly clear is that his presence was evil. Now think on that.
To acknowledge God is to also accept that there are angels. To accept angels then you accept that there is a devil since Satan was an angel, and he has followers and they are evil and are not, for the most part, of this reality. They do show up and have influence here, as my boys and me will attest too.
This is most likely one reason Christians have such a tough time for the most part. Why we go through trial after trial, and yet as we place our faith in God and His Son Jesus we come out better and stronger. Willing to face the diversities that will come until that time that we are called to join Jesus.
Confessions of a screwed up middle aged man: Why I prefer voluptuous woman
To me skinny or athletic females are a turn off. I do not want to see the woman’s skeleton or muscles. Now I must confess my first wife was skinny and boney before she gave birth, but I adored her post birth body. Other issues caused our marriage to end.
So having experienced both body types, I feel I can attest honestly on the subject. A woman with an hourglass figure and with smooth curves is much more appealing to the eye and attractive.
I watch those ads on TV where they talk about losing weight and they show before and after pictures. Nine times out of ten, I think to myself the woman looks better before she lost the weight. I am not a fan of things like that, but honestly, there are times when folks are too overweight. That is why the word “average” sounds more like the word “sexy” to me.
Flower power now in power and boy are they making a psychedelic mess
As I think back over my youth, I think about what I saw on the news and how people protested this and protested that. Anti-religion, Anti-war, Anti-government, Anti- parents. Then I realize that the people that were doing this protesting are now those that have power in this nation. I think back of the last six years and I see how this country is starting to resemble what those in the late 1960s and early 1970s were protesting. They said God is evil and now God has been removed from the public and is constantly attacked every time some tries to place God back where He belongs. They said war was wrong and so pulled our troops out of areas where they were defending our nation from attacks by terrorist and now terrorist are running rampant and the threat to our nation is even worse than before 9/11. They were against the government and now are the government and so are ignoring the constitution, luckily, the Supreme Court has seen the light and is doing what those in congress should be doing.
They were hater their parents and so now they have made the government the parent and the youth are running wild and slaughtering they fellow classmates in their schools. Schools that were safe when God was there.
But no it is not their fault. They have done no wrong. It is still those that support war, it is still those that support a lawful government, it is those that support parents raising their own children with God as the center of it all that are at fault.
Our nation falls apart and they still cannot see that they caused the problem.
What can we do?
Return to God.
Remove incumbents that refuse to follow the constitution.
Return to God.
Reduce the national government and increase the state government.
Return to God.
Defend this nation by closing its boarders and attacking those that attack us first, which the terrorist HAVE done and promise to do again.
RETURN TO GOD!!!!!
About me
I am forced today to do something that I have not wanted to do. I take no pride or pleasure in what I am about to type. But my hand is being forced by those that believe I write these postings for my self-glorification, which is the furthest thing from the truth for I know I am in no way perfect or near perfect, but I will stick only to my faith and how it came to me as best I can.
Now I know I have mentioned events in my past, but I told them in a way to help those reading to identify with me so they could see the truth in what I was trying to tell them, and that is all it was meant to do. I accepted Jesus into my life when I was twenty-five, but I did not become born-again until June 25, 1986 when I felt the Holy Spirit pour into me. On that day I spoke in tongues, and from time to time I have since then. For the next two years as I poured through the Bible and learned more and more about faith I was given dreams by God (Acts 2:17). Some of these dreams made it into the book I wrote because of them most I did not. Some I have posted here in this blog. Many were meant solely for me to grow in my faith and so I will never share them. Others like knowing a full month before it was made public that Jimmy Swaggart was committing adultery I tried to tell others but fell upon deaf ears.
From about the early nineties I entered in the time of my faith that I feel many slip into. It is neither an improvement in your faith or a step away. It is this type of faith that I call the grey zone you are neither hot nor cold for God. Those that are called lukewarm. It is a faith that I feel most fall into and are not fully aware they have. It is these that I seek to speak to more than any other person for they are mentioned within the book of Revelation and Jesus said it is these that he would spew from his mouth. It is these that think they shall be taken in the Rapture, but shall instead find themselves still here upon this earth. It is a place I knew I was in and for all I know still may be, for only Jesus can answer that question at this time.
Then 2013 happened, my year of Job, my soon to be ex-wife had allowed my apartment to become that of a hoarders. I begged and pleaded for her to address it, but she refused, and since I was working full time was unable to address on my own, because once I did clean, I would find a mess twice as large replacing it the next day. Then she was arrested for shoplifting. Two days later, I was evicted from my apartment. Two week later the management of the apartment made it impossible for me to move any of my personal property out so I lost all of my personal possessions and items of importance like photo albums were forever lost to me. During the entire year, one tribulation after another took place until I finally placed everything before God and throw myself upon His mercy.
It was through this year of tribulation that I learned how selfish I truly was. Even though I was nowhere near as selfish as I had been before I came to be born-again. It was through these trials that I learned that all must go to God. That all else comes before me. God first, family second, the world third and then just maybe me. I was given a burden on my heart to start posting first in Facebook and then finally in this blog. Why? So that I can cause others to think about where they stand with God. About if they are being selfish. If they are willing to understand that it is God and His Son Jesus that we owe our very existence too. Since there have been many times throughout history that it was through God that humans still walk upon this planet this very day. It was through God that the nation of the United States even exists and that the way it was structured exists.
I can go no further with this post.
The flicker of life left his eyes
I remember watching a documentary about the Falklands War. They had an embedded reporter and film crew with a Special Forces team that were scouting to take the main town where most of the British citizens were known to live. I remember they were using a night vision camera because they were maneuvering at night.
I do not remember the full details, but I know they got into a firefight. One member of the team was hit and was pulled out to where the camera operator was. He recorded what transpired in the minutes that followed. He kept his camera mostly on the man’s face. You could hear the medic trying to patch him up as well, but I soon was zoned in upon the face of the young man on the screen before me.
I was not able to join the military due to trying to be a good son. My eldest brother joined the Navy, and my father had opened a family business a couple of years later while I was still in High School so when it came time to make the choice. I decided to be the dutiful son and honor my father’s wishes and stay out of the military and in the family business.
So this was the closest I have ever came to a real combat situation. I wished I could have been there with them. Standing and fighting beside them, but instead I set thousands of miles and months after the fact, watching the face of a young man in the green light of a low light camera lens.
I watched his eyes. His eyes that moved, reacted, and flickered with the life within him. Soon though they become unresponsive, but still the flicker of life was present. Then it happened. The flicker left and I knew that his soul was gone and all that was left was an empty body.
This was the first time I had ever witnessed the death of a body. It was the first time I knew that without a doubt we had souls that are just using a body to get around from place to place and converse with other souls. It was here that I knew we were children of creation, not an act of chance or nature. It was here that I realized those that had never had to make such a sacrifice as this young man did or been his comrade, or as I learned by watching a documentary. That these men, these soldiers sacrifice so much so we can have freedom. Therefore, we can have the indulgence of not having to see things like this. Then I see what people do with this freedom. They take from men that have died like this man. They take the symbols of God from where those like him are buried. They steal money from those like him so they can live in luxury while they suffer physically and mentally from the wounds of war, and they refuse them care that was promised to them. This is just wrong.
What follows is sermon given at the Naval Academy a few short hours before Pearl Harbor was attacked:
On Sunday morning, December 7, 1941, Peter Marshall preached to the regiment of midshipmen in the Naval Academy at Annapolis. A strange feeling which he couldn’t shake off led him to change his announced topic to an entirely different homiletical theme based on James 4:14: For what is your life? It is even a vapour, that appeareth for a little time and then vanisheth away. In the chapel before him was the December graduating class, young men who in a few days would receive their commissions and go on active duty. In that sermon titled Go Down Death, Peter Marshall used this illustration.
In a home of which I know, a little boy—the only son—was ill with an incurable disease. Month after month the mother had tenderly nursed him, read to him, and played with him, hoping to keep him from realizing the dreadful finality of the doctor’s diagnosis. But as the weeks went on and he grew no better, the little fellow gradually began to understand that he would never be like the other boys he saw playing outside his window and, small as he was, he began to understand the meaning of the term death, and he, too, knew that he was to die.
One day his mother had been reading to him the stirring tales of King Arthur and his Knights of the Round Table: of Lancelot and Guinevere and Elaine, the lily maid of Astolat, and of that last glorious battle in which so many fair knights met their death.
As she closed the book, the boy sat silent for an instant as though deeply stirred with the trumpet call of the old English tale, and then asked the question that had been weighing on his childish heart: “Mother, what is it like to die? Mother, does it hurt?” Quick tears sprang to her eyes and she fled to the kitchen supposedly to tend to something on the stove. She knew it was a question with deep significance. She knew it must be answered satisfactorily. So she leaned for an instant against the kitchen cabinet, her knuckles pressed white against the smooth surface, and breathed a hurried prayer that the Lord would keep her from breaking down before the boy and would tell her how to answer him.
And the Lord did tell her. Immediately she knew how to explain it to him.
“Kenneth,” she said as she returned to the next room, “you remember when you were a tiny boy how you used to play so hard all day that when night came you would be too tired even to undress, and you would tumble into mother’s bed and fall asleep? That was not your bed…it was not where you belonged. And you stayed there only a little while. In the morning, much to your surprise, you would wake up and find yourself in your own bed in your own room. You were there because someone had loved you and taken care of you. Your father had come—with big strong arms—and carried you away. Kenneth, death is just like that. We just wake up some morning to find ourselves in the other room—our own room where we belong—because the Lord Jesus loved us.”
The lad’s shining, trusting face looking up into hers told her that the point had gone home and that there would be no more fear … only love and trust in his little heart as he went to meet the Father in Heaven.
After Peter Marshall had finished the service at Annapolis and as he and his wife Catherine were driving back to Washington that afternoon, suddenly the program on the car radio was interrupted. The announcer’s voice was grave: “Ladies and Gentlemen. Stand by for an important announcement. This morning the United States Naval Base at Pearl Harbor was bombed…..”
Within a month many of the boys to whom Peter Marshall had just preached would go down to hero’s graves in strange waters. Soon all of them would be exposed to the risks and dangers of war, and Peter Marshall, under God’s direction, that very morning had offered them the defining metaphor about the reality of eternal life.
—Catherine Marshall, A Man Called Peter, pp. 230-231, 272-273
Mountain Memories
I have loved the mountains since I was small. My father worked for a big corporation, but one of those guys that got transferred a lot. The thing is I think he took jobs that no one else would take so it would allow him to rise up the corporate chain more quickly.
The thing is it allowed me to spend my informative years in the west. I know from photo albums that I went through the Dakotas. I think I remember seeing Mount Rushmore. I know I saw mountains. Some in the distance, some up close. Sometimes even standing upon them.
I remember going to Little Big Horn and all I saw was rolling hills. I barely recollect the river at Great Falls, but I do remember the home we lived in. It was in a new suburb then. I also recall the winter and opening the front door and seeing snow all the way to the top of it due to being blown against the house. It was still very deep, my head scarcely allowed me to see over it has my older brother pushed his way out ahead of me as I followed him.
The house in Billings was older. There I got stunk by bees a lot. One thing I did enjoy was watching the planes take off from the airport which was atop a plateau next to the city. I have never truly been able to return to the west for a long period of time since I grew up. It is one of those things I truly regret.
The last time was in the west I was on I-40. It was summer and it was hot. One thing that amazed me though was where sections of the interstate either in Arizona or New Mexico that were actually build upon lava flows. It is something that people never even think twice about, but it was totally fascinating to me.
But back to the mountains. My best memories of mountains were in Salt Lake. Once again my father purchased a home in a new subdivision. The mountains were right there. Every day they were there. I loved those mountains. I would walk to school and church looking at them. They were beautiful. I would play in the field behind that house. It even had a sand dune in part of it. I learned to understand why they said Indians would bury people in ant hills. A few yard from my backyard I came upon a huge colony. It had to be a good yard in diameter. It was a fascinating and exciting time. I can honestly say I was happy. The happiest I have ever been.
I know I can never recapture those days ever again. I do wish to at the very least try to revisit some of those memories as I make new memories. Memories I know I will carry with me throughout all my live as I have carried those memories of my childhood.
Trip to Grandma’s
There are things that just stick with you throughout a life. You can forget friends you once cherished. You can forget some places you have been. There are times though when something just glues itself to your memories. Something that is minor to other that are with you, but to you it becomes a building block on your personality.
One of these blocks for me was on a trip to grandma’s. Many of us had trips to a grand parent or parents. Then many of us have not had that opportunity, or their grandparents live close enough that within a few minutes your are there.
That was not how it was for me. Mine meant traveling for a couple of days. Traveling form the high plains of Montana to the lowlands of the Missouri River. Traveling through Montana, Wyoming, Nebraska and Kansas.
On one of these trips is when my memory was set, and the building block was formed. It is funny I do not remember how old I was exactly, but I must have been about six. It was a cloudy grey day that I am certain. The grasses of the prairie were yellow upon the rolling hills that surround the interstate we were traveling on. Back then seventy-five was the speed limit. For all I know it may have returned to the limit, since several states have ended the need to go fifty-five.
I was looking out the window setting behind my father who was driving, and as I did, I saw them. A herd of Pronghorn Antelope, they crested a hill and curved in over it and then started to run parallel with the highway. I do not know how long they did, but it felt like forever that they did this. To be honest it was most likely nearly two minutes. To watch these animals running has fast as our car and at the same time running up and then down the hills mesmerized me. Then they arced away from the road cresting one more hill and they were gone. I remember looking back trying to still see them, but they were gone.
Yet here I am writing this, and sharing it. They are here, and yet it has been a life time since they were here. It had made it where I love to travel upon the road. A goal I plan to pursue once I retire. A clock I am watching nearly weekly. In time, it will be daily that I watch this clock. Then I will be free to wonder the highways once again and look upon the beauties this nation has to offer. It is something I cannot wait to share.